my feelings.
Friday, December 5, 2008
hello humanzoidxz !
life is just full of sh*tzzels! like really.
why cant my own family support me of what
i dream / my passion now?! whenever i took pictures
using dad's camera, kak sonya nd mirah says its nice
my own family, my own blood, says "otak engkau " =.=
i feel slashed siol! idk what im talking about but i really like
taking pictures and all its my dream to become a photographer!!!
no other man gonne stop me from what im doing nd i mean it!
why cant they be like, " ohh its nice, next time take more
pictures ". God, why must they think i playing with this kind of things.
its my dreams to achieve it nd make it a success. wtf?! i know im faaat /
plump tak payah nak paggil orang anak gajah sey :'(
abcdefcuklmnopqrst luh! im sorry peepz, i really cant keep my feelings,
if i keep, orang makin pijak kepale aku! now, im having mood swings.
im crying sey, like seriously, if you guys dont want me to use YOUR camera,
fine! i'll buy myself a good one, and im gonne save using my own money!
if anyone stops me from doing that i seriously scream, and this is serious.
okay, this is actually happend yesterday..we ( kak sonya, me and mirah)
just came back from little india and vivo, so i took some pictures which
for my opinion its just a hobby of mine. so..
dad: mane camera aku?
me:dalam beg *still eating*
dad:yealuh mane?!
me:*take out that camera*
dad:ape gamba2 kau amik ni?! sampai rumput2..?!
me:itu photography. *try to xplain nicely.*
dad:otak kau!
i seriously pissed after that and continue eating and read twilight. cant he talk to
me nicely, after i talk to him nicely ?! so that time, like a month ago, i ask my sis
to buy me camera, just a simple one. and what she said ?! why you have to be like
"monkey see, monkey do?!" i enjoy taking pictures, itu pon salah?!! fine, thats okay.
if one day, i become a photographer dont come and beg me to take your wedding
pictures / your pictures! whoever read this, maybe one of you people, yes, im really
crying and really angry. humans have feelings and learn to respect it! ohh cuz im
the youngest one, they will ask, "adik, go shop buy me this..buy me that" fine i'll go.
after i went to the shop , reached home, cant they say a simple thank you? i do it with
sincere but whenever i ask them to do something / buy me something, they will be like
"did you said thank you ?" ohhmygawd, im really gonne change and you will not see
the MARLEENA BTE_____ you used to see. too bad im gonne change ! learn to respect
me please! i cried, did any of my OWN blood gave me a hug or pad me and say
"stop crying..?" NO! enjoy. my heart is now damaged. thanks! i know, im emo
whatsoever you guys wanne say, i dont care =.= <-- see this face, memorize it,
learn it and eat it! this is my blog and i can write whatever i want to. this is how i feel
at home, if you guys think my life is good, think agen my fren. i cant take this
anymore!
crying.
-end of this sh/ts.
Labels: this is how i really feel.
